We lie in each story. This aint that story.

Monday, February 15, 2016

Apa Nasib Kami?

5:07 AM Posted by BUDAK LAMPOH , , No comments

3 bulan aku menganggur. Bukan kerana aku tidak mahu bekerja. Bukan aku malas untuk bekerja. Akan tetapi, keraguan tentang perjalanan yang aku hadapi sekarang.

Siapa kata budak IPG hidupnya senang? Sudah diatur perjalanan yang mudah untuk mereka oleh kerajaan. Oh sesungguhnya aku dengki dengan orang yang kebih berpelajaran. Ijazah tinggi itu kau seperti tidak punya pendidikan.

Ya Allah,

Malaysia bagiku sekarang sudah tidak aman. Semuanya penuh propaganda dan penipuan. Kami rakyat jadi mangsa. Kau tunjukkanlah keadilan. Kerana kami hanya dapat berdoa.

Ya Allah,

Percepatkanlah postingku. Kerana di waktu ini aku merasa aku membebankan keluargaku. Percepatkanlah postingku. Kerana diri ini merasa tidak menentu. Dengan keadaanku sekarang ini akj lemah melihat jiranku. Belajar merentas lautan tapi masih tiafa pekerjaan.

Ya Allah,

Belakan nasib kami, percepatkanlah posting kami untuk jadi insan bernama pendidik.

AMIIN.

Doaku padaMu ya Allah.
Lampoh

Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Me and Society

5:20 AM Posted by BUDAK LAMPOH , No comments

اَللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ َعلى سيدنا مُحَمَّدٍ  وَ عَلَى آِل سيدنا مُحَمَّدٍ

اَللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ َعلى سيدنا مُحَمَّدٍ  وَ عَلَى آِل سيدنا مُحَمَّدٍ

اَللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ َعلى سيدنا مُحَمَّدٍ  وَ عَلَى آِل سيدنا مُحَمَّد
Selamat Menyambut Maulidur rasul Kpd Muslimin Dan Muslimat.
Marilah kita sama2 berselawat mengingatinya..ٍ

Alhamdulillah, esok sudah Maulidur Rasul. Tapi dalam diri ini punya masalah yang lebih besar. Seing people. Outside people. Hmmm. Hati punya sikit, eh! Banyak takut nak jumpa orang luar ni. Nak cerita kat orang semua orang gelak je. Sakit jugak hati aku.

Ive been uncomfortable with people since i was a kid. Kenapa? Aku pon tak tahu kenapa. Hmmm. tapi bila aku keluar, and people sees me, i thought people would judge me. People already did when i was a kid and it wasnt nice. They did not judge me that nicely. It hurts me and my pride. As a kid, it put up scar till now.

I am a future teacher so people would say yhat i would be better now than then. I am tired. Tired to put up to start a conversation that i dont know is interesting for an adult. If it is with a kid, yeah i can talk a lot. Oh well, now i know why i want to be a teacher. There is upside afterall.

Being me i hate talking. It makes me less cooler. Rather than talking i am better being the quiet one. It makes me a lot cooler with my big physique. Letih lah macam ni. Dah 23 dah oi! Haha. Dan aku accidentally pakai english. LOL.

yang merapu dan antisosial,

Lampoh

Monday, December 21, 2015

Here Comes New Year!

5:50 AM Posted by BUDAK LAMPOH , , , No comments

Tinggal lebih kurang sepuluh hari lagi mahu menjejak ke tahun baru, 2016. Jadi persoalannya sekarang. What happened in 2015?

2015 taught me that nothing last forever. Tahun ini tahun terakhir di maktab kesayangan. Dan perpisahan berlaku. Its a good thing, i guessed. Pada mulanya mungkin aku merasakan ini adalah masa untuk aku mula kehidupan di tempat aku sendiri. Yet, i did not change. Masih berteleku di dalam bilik. Masih dengan kehidupan aku sahaja. Tidur, makan. Repeat. 2016? Hmmm.

2015 taught me that if you want something, be honest. Dalam banyak banyak tahun, rasanya tahun ini aku selalu mintak pelbagai permintaan. Yet, semua ok belaka. Jadi lepas ini, taknak tipu dahpn manipulasi orang dah. Jujur sahaja. InsyaAllah kalau orang lain mahu, dia akan terima.

2015 taught me that nothing goes right when you gamble. Memang dalam kehidupan ada masa kita berada di atas ada masa kita berada di bawah. Tapi mana-mana keadaan sekalipun, jangan sekali gadai segalanya. Jangan perjudikan nasib sebab pada akhirnya, redha Allah tak ada sehinggakan kau hampir hilang kesemuanya. So learn from your mistake. Dont do anything stupid in 2016!

2015 taught me to not get too attach. Because nothing seems real. Fictional stuff is fictional for a reason. Biar kalau berkawan, hiar ada batasnya. Bila sudah rasa melekat, jangan hingga tak boleh sedar semula. Kau dah rasa dah dulu. Jangan ulang kali ketiga ya? 2016.

2015 taught me that i have became so lazy to write. Haha.

Yang mengharapkan 2016 lebih baik,

Budak Lampoh

Friday, May 15, 2015

I want to be human.

9:28 AM Posted by BUDAK LAMPOH No comments

Manusia. Hmmm. I have done so many sin i can accounted for. And for some reason, we joke around like it is okey. It hurts. We want some changes in our life. No lies. But how is the hard part.

I want to stop smoking.

I want to start my solat again.

I want to be fit.

I want to be truly honest with myself and to others.

I want to fight for what i am right for.

I want to be someone i truly wanted to be.

I want what my parent will proud of what i am.

But that is just the list that i want. Sooner or later i wash it all for what i have really done for me. This is stupid. I were once a very good boy. What happen?

I want a change.

Monday, April 27, 2015

Im going to cry again am i?

1:33 AM Posted by BUDAK LAMPOH No comments

Be strong. Be righteous. Be grateful. Those will keep you smiling. But why aint i be happy? Ive been dreaming you to say those three words but why aint i happy. I am going to cry again am i..?

No attachment. That what i said to mend the broken heart of mine. Pull yourself together cause no one else would. I am tired of being the one to choose side. But i chose anyway. To be away from what you are is hard. It is sooo hard.

But these road i planned on taking is because i wanted to. Because i think it is the very best choice that i can make.

Short story of mine:
Lampoh